The Labyrinthine

June 7, 2011

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May 27, 2011

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I intend on doing this sometime (hopefully soon) this summer.  Already found myself a beautiful vintage basket-turn-table, now I have to find the perfect tepee fabric.

April 5, 2011

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How Ayn Rand ruined my childhood

My dad saw objectivism as a logical philosophy to live by, but it tore my family apart

By Alyssa Bereznak

    How Ayn Rand ruined my childhood


    My parents split up when I was 4. My father, a lawyer, wrote the divorce papers himself and included one specific rule: My mother was forbidden to raise my brother and me religiously. She agreed, dissolving Sunday church and Bible study with one swift signature. Mom didn’t mind; she was agnostic and knew we didn’t need religion to be good people. But a disdain for faith wasn’t the only reason he wrote God out of my childhood. There was simply no room in our household for both Jesus Christ and my father’s one true love: Ayn Rand.

    You might be familiar with Rand from a high school reading assignment. Perhaps a Tea Partyer acquaintance name-dropped her in a debate on individual rights. Or maybe you’ve heard the film adaptation of her magnum opus “Atlas Shrugged” is due out April 15. In short, she is a Russian-born American novelist who championed her self-taught philosophy of objectivism through her many works of fiction. Conservatives are known to praise her for her support of laissez-faire economics and meritocracy. Liberals tend to criticize her for being too simplistic. I know her more intimately as the woman whose philosophy dictates my father’s every decision.

    What is objectivism? If you’d asked me that question as a child, I could have trotted to the foyer of my father’s home and referenced a framed quote by Rand that hung there like a cross. It read: “My philosophy, in essence, is the concept of man as a heroic being, with his own happiness as the moral purpose of his life, with productive achievement as his noblest activity, and reason as his only absolute.” As a little kid I interpreted this to mean: Love yourself. Nowadays, Rand’s bit is best summed up by the rapper Drake, who sang: “Imma do me.”

    Dad wasn’t always a Rand zealot. He was raised in a Catholic family and went to church every week. After he and my mother got married in 1982, they shopped around for a church. He was looking for something to live by, but he couldn’t find it in traditional organized religion.

    Then he discovered objectivism. I don’t know exactly why he sparked to Rand. He claimed the philosophy appealed to him because it’s based solely on logic. It also conveniently quenched his lawyer’s thirst to always be right. It’s not uncommon for people to seek out belief systems, whether political or spiritual, that make them feel good about how they already live their lives. Ultimately, I suspect Dad was drawn to objectivism because, unlike so many altruistic faiths, it made him feel good about being selfish.

    Needless to say, Dad’s newfound obsession with the individual didn’t pan out so well with the woman he married. He was always controlling, but he became even more so. In the end, my mother moved out, but objectivism stayed. My brother and I switched off living at each parent’s house once a week.

    It was odd growing up, at least part-time, in an objectivist house. My father reserved long weekends to attend Ayn Rand Institute conferences held in Orange County, California. He would return with a tan and a pile of new reading material for my brother and me. While other kids my age were going to Bible study, I took evening classes from the institute via phone. (I half-listened while clicking through lolcat photos.)

    Our objectivist education, however, was not confined to lectures and books. One time, at dinner, I complained that my brother was hogging all the food.

    “He’s being selfish!” I whined to my father.

    “Being selfish is a good thing,” he said. “To be selfless is to deny one’s self. To be selfish is to embrace the self, and accept your wants and needs.”

    It was my dad’s classic response — a grandiose philosophical answer to a simple real-world problem. But who cared about logic? All I wanted was another serving of mashed potatoes.

    Still, Rand’s philosophy was well-suited for the self-absorbed tween I was becoming. Her books were packed with riveting plot twists and sexy architects — easy reading as long as you skimmed over the occasional four-page, didactic rant. Around the time I began exploring Rand’s literature, my parents began an epic legal battle over child support. I felt isolated by the conflict and found solace in Rand’s message: You must rely on yourself for happiness.

    Just as many use faith as a reason to continue during hard times, objectivism helped me stay strong throughout my parents’ legal battle. I got a part-time job, played field hockey, ran for student government and joined the yearbook staff. I argued with a Birkenstock-clad substitute teacher the day he showed Michael Moore’s classic underdog-bites-back documentary “Roger and Me” in government class. He looked at me in disbelief as I, a skinny blond girl with braces, insisted that General Motors CEO Roger Smith had every right to ruin the lives of Flint, Mich., citizens. On weekends I argued with my friends that global warming didn’t exist. I hoarded my accomplishments at school, convinced I’d earned them all on my own. Meanwhile, my mother quietly packed my lunch every day.

    Soon, however, I began to question whether my father’s philosophical beliefs were simply a justification of his own needs. As soon as the legal drama erupted, he refused to pay for even the smallest things, declaring, “Your mother is suing me,” in defensive sound bites, as though it explained everything.

    Can I buy new shoes? A couple bucks for the movies? Your mother is suing me.

    Twenty dollars for a class field trip? Your mother is suing me.

    From what I understood of his favorite capitalist champion, any form of altruism was evil. But how could that kind of blanket self-interest extend to his own children, the people he was legally and morally bound to take care of? What was I supposed to do, fend for myself?

    The answer to my question came on an autumn weekend during my sophomore year in high school. I was hosting a Harry Potter-themed float party in our driveway, a normal ritual to prepare decorations for my high school quad the week of homecoming. As I was painting a cardboard owl, my father asked me to come inside the house. He and his new wife sat me down at the dinner table with grave faces.

    “We were wondering if you would petition to be emancipated,” he said in his lawyer voice.

    “What does that mean?” I asked, picking at the mauve paint on my hands. I later discovered that for most kids, declaring emancipation is an extreme measure — something you do if your parents are crack addicts or deadbeats.

    “You would need to become financially independent,” he said. “You could work for me at my law firm and pay rent to live here.”

    This was my moment of truth as an objectivist. If I believed in the glory of the individual, I would’ve signed the petition papers then and there. But as much as Rand’s novels had taught me to believe in meritocracy, they had not prepared me to go it alone financially and emotionally. I began to cry and refused.

    Hardcore objectivists often criticize liberals for basing decisions on emotion, rather than reason. My father saw our family politics no differently. In his mind, it was reasonable to ask that I emancipate myself and work for a living. To me, it felt like he was asking me to sacrifice my childhood so he didn’t have to pay child support. To me, it felt like abandonment.

    Nearly a year after that conversation, my parents’ legal battle came to an end. In Santa Clara County’s record room, the typical family law case occupies the space of a small manila folder. My parents’ case filled several shelves. A judge decided my father would have to pay my mother both what he owed in child support and her attorney fees — an amount that totaled about $120,000.

    Dad’s only choice was to sell our house. I moved to Mom’s and saw him for the occasional restaurant lunch or family holiday. The distance between us grew wider when I went off to college. He’d call me every other month to play 20-minute catch-up before he had to rush back to work. More consistent, however, were his e-mails. Forwarded from the daily objectivist newsletter he subscribed to, each one had a title like “George W. Bush, Genius” or “Obama the Pathetic.” They continue to pile up in my in box, mostly unread. Every once in a while, I’ll click on one, hoping to find a “How are you?” or “What’s new?” to no avail. It’s a hopeless exercise. I learned long ago that an objectivist like my father simply doesn’t care to know.

    • Alyssa Bereznak is a grad student at New York University’s Arthur L. Carter Journalism Institute. Follow her on Twitter @alyssabereznak. More: Alyssa Bereznak

    [via salon]

    March 23, 2011

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    Liz Taylor - (February 27, 1932 – March 23, 2011)

    I was never a particular fan of hers, but a beauty she was.  And not to forget performances such as in Tennessee Williams’s Cat on a Hot Tin Roof and Edward Albee’s Who’s Afraid of Virginia Woolf? for which she’ll remain immortalized.

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    Talk about macabre….

    [via recave]

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    These are the 100 most beautiful words in the English language, apparently.
    Ailurophile A cat-lover.
    Assemblage A gathering.
    Becoming Attractive.
    Beleaguer To exhaust with attacks.
    Brood To think alone.
    Bucolic In a lovely rural setting.
    Bungalow A small, cozy cottage.
    Chatoyant Like a cat’s eye.
    Comely Attractive.
    Conflate To blend together.
    Cynosure A focal point of admiration.
    Dalliance A brief love affair.
    Demesne Dominion, territory.
    Demure Shy and reserved.
    Denouement The resolution of a mystery.
    Desuetude Disuse.
    Desultory Slow, sluggish.
    Diaphanous Filmy.
    Dissemble Deceive.
    Dulcet Sweet, sugary.
    Ebullience Bubbling enthusiasm.
    Effervescent Bubbly.
    Efflorescence Flowering, blooming.
    Elision Dropping a sound or syllable in a word.
    Elixir A good potion.
    Eloquence Beauty and persuasion in speech.
    Embrocation Rubbing on a lotion.
    Emollient A softener.
    Ephemeral Short-lived.
    Epiphany A sudden revelation.
    Erstwhile At one time, for a time.
    Ethereal Gaseous, invisible but detectable.
    Evanescent Vanishing quickly, lasting a very short time.
    Evocative Suggestive.
    Fetching Pretty.
    Felicity Pleasantness.
    Forbearance Withholding response to provocation.
    Fugacious Fleeting.
    Furtive Shifty, sneaky.
    Gambol To skip or leap about joyfully.
    Glamour Beauty.
    Gossamer The finest piece of thread, a spider’s silk.
    Halcyon Happy, sunny, care-free.
    Harbinger Messenger with news of the future.
    Imbrication Overlapping and forming a regular pattern.
    Imbroglio An altercation or complicated situation.
    Imbue To infuse, instill.
    Incipient Beginning, in an early stage.
    Ineffable Unutterable, inexpressible.
    Ingénue A naïve young woman.
    Inglenook A cozy nook by the hearth.
    Insouciance Blithe nonchalance.
    Inure To become jaded.
    Labyrinthine Twisting and turning.
    Lagniappe A special kind of gift.
    Lagoon A small gulf or inlet.
    Languor Listlessness, inactivity.
    Lassitude Weariness, listlessness.
    Leisure Free time.
    Lilt To move musically or lively.
    Lissome Slender and graceful.
    Lithe Slender and flexible.
    Love Deep affection.
    Mellifluous Sweet sounding.
    Moiety One of two equal parts.
    Mondegreen A slip of the ear.
    Murmurous Murmuring.
    Nemesis An unconquerable archenemy.
    Offing The sea between the horizon and the offshore.
    Onomatopoeia A word that sounds like its meaning.
    Opulent Lush, luxuriant.
    Palimpsest A manuscript written over earlier ones.
    Panacea A solution for all problems
    Panoply A complete set.
    Pastiche An art work combining materials from various sources.
    Penumbra A half-shadow.
    Petrichor The smell of earth after rain.
    Plethora A large quantity.
    Propinquity An inclination.
    Pyrrhic Successful with heavy losses.
    Quintessential Most essential.
    Ratatouille A spicy French stew.
    Ravel To knit or unknit. (Unravel is one of my favorites)
    Redolent Fragrant.
    Riparian By the bank of a stream.
    Ripple A very small wave.
    Scintilla A spark or very small thing.
    Sempiternal Eternal.
    Seraglio Rich, luxurious oriental palace or harem.
    Serendipity Finding something nice while looking for something else.
    Summery Light, delicate or warm and sunny.
    Sumptuous Lush, luxurious.
    Surreptitious Secretive, sneaky.
    Susquehanna A river in Pennsylvania.
    Susurrous Whispering, hissing.
    Talisman A good luck charm.
    Tintinnabulation Tinkling.
    Umbrella Protection from sun or rain.
    Untoward Unseemly, inappropriate.
    Vestigial In trace amounts.
    Wafture Waving.
    Wherewithal The means.
    Woebegone Sorrowful, downcast
    [via somuchtotellyou]
    It was kind of uncanny as to how many of those words have always been my personal favorites (highlighted in green), words I love to roll out of my tongue just for eargasms.  I mean, she even has Labyrinthine in there.  Nice.

    Missed Connections

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    Do You Believe in Love at First Sight?

    Tuesday, October 6, 2009
    -m4w (L train to Manhattan)
    You were reading Catch-22 on the subway this morning. I have never seen such a beautiful profile. I wanted to say hi, but then you’d turn towards me and I wouldn’t be able to look at your profile anymore. You were so into your book, I don’t think you noticed me falling in love with you. But I thought I’d ask, just in case.

    Illustrator Sophie Blackall has read thousands of missed connections posts. A self confessed addict of these intimate, fleeting moments described in haste.

    Vodpod videos no longer available.
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    February 22, 2011

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    Undine 1978

    Harald Naegeli


    February 20, 2011

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    Stephen Amidon wrote the book — which traces the story of the human heart through the world of science, history, culture and our bodies — with his brother, Thomas, a practicing cardiologist in Montana and a former medical director of The Hope Heart Institute.

    Pump On: A ‘Sublime’ Biography Of The Human Heart


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